Dear crush,
What's actually happening between us?It's really confusing me from the way you smile, how do you act, how you talk to me....I don't know whether this is just me who feel like this or it is true that you like me or not...But if you don't like me please don't act like you do because you know what, it's hurt me a lot...but don't worry because I never blame you that I hurt more..It just me who overact, over thinking and I should not feel like this when you're not mine at all....I will keep tell myself that and I will remembered myself about that...But I can't lie and deny that I really have a feeling towards you...I like you a lot...like a lot....
I feel stuck. I don't know how to make you like me anymore...What happened to making it work? What should I do to make you like me?I'm tired to hold on this long...but some says never give up on something that you really want. It’s difficult to wait, but more difficult to regret.....don't forget why you hold on this long...
So, should I have to keep trying to make it work? one thing that really make me hurt the most is seeing you still makes my heart beat …beat like a drum beat loudly...and how your smile still make me melt... Oh…that smile…I want you to always smile…You really do have a lovely smile, and you know what’s crazy? I want you to smile even if I’m not the reason. I want you to have all the happiness in the world. Even if it breaks my heart, I want you to be happy…and that’s how I know I do loved you a lot...I really happy everytime you talk to me..I really happy everytime you sit or stand next to me...Then I get jealous easily when I see you just talk with another girl even she is just a friend of yours because inside my mind you interested with her more..If feeling have a delete button I do delete that jealous feeling...but I don't think that I'm going to delete my feeling towards you..I know it's stupid right...don't tell me because I know it...That's why I guess I'm deeply in love with you....

So tell me how am I going to get over you? I need to get away!sometimes I told myself that I will keep loving you until one day that feeling getting away..but sometimes I told myself that I need to give up on you..but I will never give up because I always find myself still trying..so I know that I will choose to keep loving you until one day that feeling getting away...far far away....

Could you just set me free?? leave me be...I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity...Never mind if there still nothing happen between us I know one day, it will be over for me too...But in the meantime, I'll keep liking you....
I like you a lot crush...

Hi there....

Did you ever think what happens to you one year after this....There is a lot of thing that I think inside my head..Well I just can't stop guess who will be still beside me after one years because the graduation is really near right now...So since this year is our senior year I think a lot..What will I look like after one year..who will text, call, sit at the coffee shop with me and more...and there is something that I can't stop to think..did him still remember me or not..did I still hear he call my name..did him still text me...I am really think bout this a lot...What will happens to my friend??did we work under the same company?did we still can be like this?If I can choose I want to stay just in this moment...did the people that call my name will still be the same person like today...There is nothing I can do bout this because Everyone will grow up and graduate from this place...And I want to graduate too...but I just too afraid bout the future....because the best moment is when you laugh with someone that you love...family,friend,and him...

Hiya.... Lama sudah menyepi kan...hmmm baru habis tonton cerita mean girl 2...maka cerita dah lama tapi still nak tonton...and saya tak faham dengan diri sendiri coz sy nangis tonton cerita ni..and I don't know why... Mungkin sebab mata lelaki yang berlakon dalam cerita tu macam mata dia...aisehhhh....mengada betul kan...tapi sy lihat mcm tu la...korang lihat x la....haha....hmmmm can't forget his eyes...his smile...aiseehhh nang mengada....haha....xpa la atleast kita sendiri happy dengan apa yang buat kita happy....macam lagu si miley cyrus tu kan forget the haters coz somebody love ya....betul la tu....kita tak sempurna tak semua org kita boleh puaskan hati dia...sekurang-kurangnya puaskan hati diri sendiri cukupla kan...hmmmm...lala la la... merepek jak ku eh...k k k..good nite...love ya...




"Being friends is so much better. No miscommunications. No break-ups." Lee Yoo Shin(Lee Soon Shin Is The Best)
So, can we still be a friend??I just miss our conversation....But it's seem look like you never miss that...So I guess you already forget bout me right.....hmmm...I don't know what was my heart look like....waiting for something that I know it will never be...and my brain...Was it stupid enough to think of you everyday???I just don't know.....

But it's ok la...As the times go by this feeling will go away too...As long as I try to forget bout you till one day it's just become a memory....Sweet and funny memmory..And you know what, memories are things that will continuosly change and fade....=)








“Waiting is also a solution. But waiting for that kind of thing is not easy. No, it is very difficult. Love that is easy to get will also be easy to lose…” — Yoo Hyun (Miss Ripley)”



I have thinking many things recently....And I am proud with myself because my brain can think so many things in just one night....I had heard many things too...They said liking someone is happy things but for me liking somebody isn’t always a happy thing, I think....It's always hurt me....Think about him every night and when I'm alone.....I miss u so much. It really hurt a lot. Loving someone is such a painful ordeal but it’s not something I can stop....Like some people always said meeting you was a fate...I don't know why I can falling in love so easily with you...I think there is something wrong with myself... You said stop waiting for perfect guy to come..I know maybe it's not for me but when I read it my heart perfectly answer like this "I'm not waiting for that perfect guy but I'm waiting for you to liking me back..." I don't care what will you think if you read this because one of my friend told me like this : "Untuk mencintai seseorang bukanlah perkara yang perlu dimalukan...Kenapa takut untuk confess kalau benar kamu mencintai?Jangan sampai kamu menyesal suatu hari nanti...Jangan fikir perasaan dia dulu tapi fikir perasaan kamu.."
I have try my best to forget you but I still like you.So I’m going to do this until I hate you.And I know it may take a long time and it will hurt me also...I still hope that you like me too...That's why I always think If you doesn’t like me,what do I do?It's hurt you know...They told me it's not love...but if this is not love why my heart beat when I think of him??saya pernah kata dengan kawan saya macam ni: "Kamu nak tahu sama ada kamu suka dia atau tidak?Kamu letak tangan di dada kamu dan tanya hati kamu apa kamu suka dia?Did your heart beat that much?kamu tahu sudah jawapanya..." So I did what I already told her.....I ask myself too will I meet my first love then??It impossible for us to be together right....But my sis told me like this: "Saya dulu pun macam tu...Lama2 dia akan cari kamu juga...cuma semua orang ada ego masing-masing..."
It's not like that...Mungkin ini cuma mainan perasaan saja....saya tak mungkin akan jatuh cinta sejauh itu....Ia cuma mainan cinta di usia ini.....I will found someone after this...Love is always like this. It fades away after some time.On that day I will forget you.I don't know you and I have never seen you.We never even walked pass each other.I will be okay.I forgot everything and I'm happy with my busy life that I've met my first love too....I will not recognize you too like today.... Tapi buat masa sekarang I still like you.Like I said before so I’m going to do this until I hate you. It may take a long time and I know that....I watch one korean drama recently...The title is "A Gentleman’s Dignity" and you know what I found on that drama.. Do Jin said "Men only know if you tell them. Even though you probably want them to just know, they won’t.”...Maybe I should start the conversation first like I've done before this....But I'm not that type of person who will start the conversation first...I'm was afraid that he will think that I'm annoying and disturb him....who's know right maybe he had someone special with him that time.....oooohhhh....What happend with me?????I can't recognize myself....

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Annyeong Haseyo Dear....

Sorry tak sempat tulis entry yang panjang2........Baru jer sampai kat kuching.....Esok mendaftar...well semoga esok hari yang bertuah...=)

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Annyeong Haseyo Dear...

This is quote for today......

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Annyeong Haseyo Dear.....

Ok...sekarang ni nak buat tutorial music player macam saya punya....Sebenarnya tak pandai la nak buat tutorial...tapi ada rakan blogger yang minta ajar...so cha buat la kan.....=)..



k..kita mula yer....

Pertama kamu pergi ke sini.....
Dah??nanti akan muncul macam ni...


ok...lepas tu korang pergi la serch kat kotak search lagu yang korang nak...macam saya,saya pilih lagu vierra...Lepas tu korang pilih lagu mana korang nak...tekan....lepas kamu tekan akan muncul macam ni nanti....
Korang copy code yang saya merahkan tu.....Pas tu korang paste kat notepad dulu....pas tu serch code ni "FlashVars" value="mp3=.....Selepas code mp3= tuh ade http://blablablabla.mp3 kan,yang itu lah URL lagu yang korang perlu copy....dah copy kan..pergi tekan sini...


Nanti akan muncul macam ni...

Korang pilih mini...lepas tu pilih generator kat tepi tu.....nanti akan muncul macam ni....korang paste kan code yang korang dah copy kat dalam kotak yang saya merahkan tu....


Lepas tu..kalau korang nak tukar color dia kan....korang tekan yang saya merahkan kat bawah ni....pilih colour...

pas tu akan muncul macm kat bawah ni and korang tekan la yang saya merahkan tu...pilih warna..

pas tu copy code html dia macam kat bawah ni...pas tu paste kat blog korang...

Dah siap dah....

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Annyeong Haseyo Dear.....

Fashion Inspiration.....So i was bore and browse around google for my favorite female idol Rainie Yang and Victoria Justice and well they adorable and gorgeous as usual......I beleive you have your own fashion idol right....So here is some pic of Victoria Justice and Rainie Yang...Look at this pic and you will know why am I choose them to be my Fashion Inspiration...









Actually I love their hairstyle so much......^^

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Annyeong Haseyo Dear.....

Apa khabar?Sihat?Saya?Sihat la...ni dapat post entry kat blog...sihat la kan.....hehe....

Apa yang menjadi kerisauan kami pelajar politeknik kuching sem ni......Apa?cer teka....tak perlu la...lama nanti....hehe.....Semua orang risau pasal hostel atau bahasa melayunya asrama dan bahasa ibannya buding.... Hehe.....Semua dah risau....Dengar2 peratus kemasukan pelajar perempuan ke asrama hanya 50-50 jer.... Apa kes????Lelaki pula dikatakan memang tak da peluang langsung dapat hostel...Kenapa?Sebab dianggarkan pelajar junior tahun ni dikatakan 1000 orang lebih yang akan masuk POLIKU......


So,semua pelajar senior risau sesangat...oh tak semua k...ada yang tak risau sebab ada rumah dekat....macam mana ngan kami2 yang jauh ni...nak tinggal kat mana kalau tak dapat asrama?dapat rumah sewa tapi kenderaan mana?dah la tak pandai drive ni....Tu lah orang suruh ambik lesen tak nak...kenapa? Sebab kelas 5 jam dan 3 jam tu bosan......saya cuma sempat ikut kelas 5 jam jer...hehe...rugi?memang rugi... dah la dah bayar kan......Tak pa lain kali saya pergi ambik lesen k......

opppps....kuar tajuk sudah.....macam mana asrama ni???dengar kata result kuar petang ni..tak pun pagi esok ataupun hari isnin...so,kita berdoa reramai semoga saya dan yang lain dapat asrama....AMEN.....

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Annyeong Haseyo Dear...

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In this world, do you know what is so difficult that you might fail even if you die trying? It is the act of giving someone your heart. But, do you know what is even more difficult to deal with than that? It is giving someone your heart, and you are given nothing in return. That's why he told me Liking somebody isn’t always a happy thing but Loving someone is such a painful ordeal...Now I understand what is that words mean..But no matter what happend we should know that there is just one life to live, and there is should no time to waste...so smiling like there's nothing wrong because we are so good at smiling...

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